world of the unknown

….have you ever ventured into the world of the unknown?….

I think i just did.

well, it's not exactly an unknown territory for me exactly…i studied it for four grueling, nerve-wracking years…read about it, familiarized it, integrated it into my system…acquired a lot of books about it…tons of case studies and researches…heck! i even wake up @ 3 am just to memorize every detail of its complicated procedures and theories…but still when i started my first real training in the field of nursing…with no clinical instructors…no classmates..just my license and me…i was totally, exhilaratingly, forgot-all-what-i-learned NERVOUS!…

…talk about paranoia and all…i really feel as if i'm not gonna make it through my four-month program…geez!

But i'm gonna show you that i can…. and by the end of this program…it will be a different ME.

…you know me better than i know myself

….who am i?…

We were once asked by our CI in Psychiatry  to write about ourselves……well….i said to myself "that's easy"…i could write a whole book about myself…my life,my passion,my dreams…my not so perfect self living in a not so perfect world..

anyway, i ended up writing just a few sentences then….nothing..

….i couldnt think of anything else to say about myself…then it dawned on me…i dont know who i am!..

okay, okay…before you freak out and start thinking that i may have a form of dissociative disorder or an early manifestation of Alzheimer's….well, i dont.

Whether we accept it or not…we dont know know ourselves as much as we would like to believe that we do…there are times that we just surprise ourselves of the things that we can do everytime we are faced with circumstances that places us at a crosspoint.

Everytime i say i cant….i end up doing the opposite and say "hey,did i just do that?"…everytime i decide to give up on something….some inner force within me says,"just get it over with"….so i do..and it surprises me in the end…i never cease to amaze myself of the things i did, can do, or will do…everyday i'm getting to know a side of me i never thought  existed.

…..you know what…the secret is to just TRY.

…get to know yourself.