…me again.

…me again.

 back from the depths of my chaotic life…

…ok stop it carien, you’re scaring them….no, am not having one of those multipersonality disorders or somethin’…am just into the habit of talking to myself sometimes…specially when i am having one of those morbid episodes.

I left you in the OR right?…well, that was a long time ago….when i was still a student nurse that is…

I have come a long way….oh well, i guess not thaat long…but i now have my fair share of experiences in the real nursing world.

After graduation, i went straight from the clasroom to……another clasroom?….yes.

I started to review for the local Nursing Board Exam…5 long months of serious…no nonsense…mind wracking…on the brink of psychosis…studying. It payed of however coz i passed the NLE with no grade below 80% in all subjects…HOOORAYYY!!!….well i worked for it so i guess i should be proud of it right?…right.

After the bliss of finally realizing that I am an RN ( tnxgiving parties, drinking sprees, food binges…etc.etc…)…me and my colleagues decided that it was time to put our well-earned knowledge into action….do some volunteer work.

I did…for a month…then i quit.

 Why?…..

Coz i wanted to push myself a little bit further…..pass the NCLEX-RN Exam.

So again, i went back to the classroom…to study…harder this time….took the exam 5 months later in Manila and as of  now, im still waiting for my results….hope it went well…im crossing my fingers here,…including my toes.(sigh)

after the NCLEX-RN exam, i applied for a 4-month training period in a tertiary hospital..that’s when my life started to change…my views of life and death…of hope and hopelessness…of holding a life in your hands…and feeling it slowly slip away… …ok im being morbid again…stop it i said.